I got scared once in my life, and it came about during a time I was disgusted with myself for other reasons. For whatever reason, I decided to bury my head in the sand! I didn’t want anything around me, but I really didn’t want anyone around me. If I suspected someone was getting too close, then I would explode and do something horrible so they would know I was a waste of time. I felt that I was hopeless and alone, and I built my universe with me being hopeless and alone. It was a self-fulfilling prophecy of the type I could never hope to escape! A feed-back loop of such immense proportions it would surely blow the speaker of my mind.
Then a miracle happened to me, one that I could not ignore. Each day can be a miracle if you think about it, and I believe it to be so. But this was much bigger than that. I got tired of killing myself, I was no good at it. I was good at upsetting people around me, but I was no good at actually ending my own life. So, I took a break and learned how to live. I will still miserable and angry though. I still can be, but it is not my default anymore. Sometime after about a year of sobriety I began to look around and see the world wasn’t so bad. Hell, in fact for all the bad times I had on Earth, every good time was there too. Was it perfect, no, but neither am I. In fact, what it needed was less complaining from me and more work!
There is in fact a lot of work to do here on earth, and with a lot of work comes planning. Usually it would, but this is a case where we have been planning our entire lives! We know what needs to be done, and it is more work than any of us can do alone. I implore you be the sunshine on a rainy day, be the grace that someone at their wits end needs! We are gently creatures like the ones we domesticate. How many cats, dogs, cows, horses, do you know that are depressed? Monkeys, Dolphins, Elephants, which one wallows in their own filth and curls into a ball exclusively? Some, perhaps, for the only thing that is always true is nothing! Certainly, it is not a sizeable percentage. The dog is happy because it is alive. You feed it, don’t beat it, the dog is happy! Why must we be so different?
Is there a set point of pain we must go through to become passable people? I fear it may be, but not all is lost! If you cannot really protect another from pain, you can be a human to them. Our goal should not be to make the world sterile, but it should be fair. No man or woman deserves priority to the natural bounty of our planet. Therefor no nation should have exclusivity either. We all live together and if we must we all die together.
Here is where some of that positivity comes in, very few things in nature exist solely to kill. I cannot think of anything that only harms everything around it. It seems to me that it would be easier for me to name something that only helps. My point is this: In my world I believe everything is going to work out ok. Because even if it doesn’t, I will never give up my part until it does, or I do die. One or both of those things may happen!
Until next time, thank you for riding with me!
Visibility: Sunny
Destinations in West Virginia by appearance:
Cross Lanes
Poca (30:00)
Dunbar (54:00)
South Charleston (58:00)
Alum Creek (1:35:00)
Midway
Sod (1:41:00)
Cobb’s Creek
Griffithsville
Yawkey
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